Tuesday, April 13, 2010

When The Sky Fell...

Suddenly there was a thunder and a flash of lightning,
It cleaved the sky in two, there were cracks all over its face. 
Shattered into pieces, the sky tumbled and fell.

There he sat in darkness now surrounding all around him. 
All was motionless. 
And motionlessness was all. 
There wasn't any sound nor anything moved.

Then he rose,walking on the pieces of a shattered sky that there was no more.
Then In the grave stillness suddenly came a soft breeze. 
It touched his face and danced in his hair.

I thought I caught a glimpse of a single drop of tear, 
And heard him whispering to the breeze, Saying:

Please Tell Her To Bring Back My Sky...

Saturday, April 10, 2010

The Crash


I was lying down on a coach in a moving train. My eyes were feeling heavy and I was fleeing quite sleepy. I remember I had my headphones on but there wasn't any music playing. I was just too tried to reach and play something on my iPod. I decided to let it be and don't move, maybe this way I would be able to get some sleep. My headphones got serious noise-suppressors but if the music is turned off I can hear conversations and other types of noise specially rumbles!

Eventually I noticed, this moving train is my friend's office. I was still laying down on the same coach. I could see his boss sitting behind his desk in the room which was at the end of the hallway. My friend was also there he was sitting behind another desk, this one was located in the hallway near to where my coach was. Both of them were accompanied by one of their co-workers. After some minutes I noticed 2 men leaving the boss's room. They came and sit on a coach that was next to me. I was still lying down keeping my eyes half closed trying not to be noticed by anyone. One of them started a conversation with my friend. At first I wasn't really paying any attention and was just watching the views passing by outside the window next to me.

Then I heard them talking about a subject, something work-related, that also involved me! So I started listening. apparently he was going to buy some of the products me and my friend just started to import. I was keen to realize how big a deal he is willing to make! It turned out, the first shipment was relatively small and he has to wait for the arrival of the next batch. Then he started telling a story about importing some similar products from the same place while he was away on a holiday to that place!

By this time I wasn't really feeling sleepy anymore and they already noticed I'm not asleep so I just decided to sit up and join in with the conversation. I did! I sat up, removed my headphones and started listening to his tale which sounded quite stupid to me. Yet, as it is a costume to respect the costumer, I showed interest and followed his stupid story with a big smile on my face. The conversation kept on going for some minutes, it was then, when I noticed that the whole scenery somehow evolved into a private jet of some sort!

I was sitting there having a conversation with that guy whom I didn't even know. My friend was busy dealing with his own business and giving some orders to his cousin who works for him. And the boss's room was now the cockpit and he was the pilot, having his assistant as his co-pilot! I remember checking my ticket, noticing it's a transit flight and it was more or less the time to land and change the plane but I realized, instead, the same plane is taking off again. I discussed this rather curious matter with the guy who was telling me stupid stories and he said that's the way it's supposed to be!

It was a smooth flight but I had this feeling something is about to go wrong. I wasn't really paying any attention to it but then suddenly the plane turned upright and started to fall! I could see the ground clearly below my feet. It was drawing closer and closer at an amazing speed. I could hear the engine roar. I could feel the weightlessness. I have never been so frightened in my entire life! I coward and closed my eyes. I was afraid to face my end like this!

I was breathing heavily. It took me a moment to make my peace with the fact that I am about to die within next few seconds and there is nothing I can do about it! The only thing I thought about, was how awful my mother would feel when she receives the new! I was horrified but I thought to myself: “there's nothing you can do about it so lets just sit back and leave everything to chance!” It was such a chaos all around me. everyone was panicked. They were all shouting and trying to do something to save themselves. And I was sitting there, gnashing my teeth, and trying to focus on survival! Then my brain started to function, craving more and more even for a tiniest piece of hope. I remembered, statistically, there is still a possibility for me to survive this crash. Then I thought the chance of being crippled is relatively high so I decided I would rather take my chances with death! Suddenly I noticed a tiny stall in the fall and the sound of the engines changed. My heart rose another bit! I decided to open my eyes and at least see what the hell's going on. Maybe there was something happening that can bring me more hope. It took all my courage to do so!

When I opened my eyes, I was lying down on a coach in a moving train. Still breathing heavily and scared to death. There wasn't any plane nor there was any crash. I still had my headphones on. And there wasn't anything playing.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

The Bliss



As the cold sun rains darkness upon me,
I wander the mist,
And the forlorn lake of thy darkened eyes,
Embraces me.


Now I am lost in the dark.
As the candle withers,
The iron-cross melts,
Eternity shared in flesh.
And the renaissance of my barren existence
Ascends towards the nadir.


The motion of daylight's moan,
Symbol of remembrance,
I Evoke Thy Presence

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Come Closer (Part I: The Arrival)


We walked through a corridor covered on both sides with ivy and other types of plants and flowers. At the end of the passage we arrived at a door, it was huge and was painted white like the rest of the building. The door was so clean, it looked as if it was painted exactly the day before. We passed through it and turned right. There, there was another corridor we had to pass. This one looked a bit creepy to me. It was long, very long, and all around it was painted pale sky-blue, even the floor tiles was of the same color. It somehow reminded me of a huge bathroom for an alien race of serpents or centipedes or something out of a Science-Fiction movie. But, there was a nice view outside the windows on its eastern wall that helped a great deal to ease my mind. They opened toward the garden on the front side of the building. The garden was so huge that from the ground floor one could not possibly see the outer walls which ran all the way around the premises of the facility. The sunlight, shining through the well-cleaned windows, was quite warming. It felt so pleasant that I actually let all the bad thoughts to go away and drift in the last day-dream I was about to have for a long period of time.

I don't really remember anything of that day-dream. The next thing I remember was arriving at the reception room. It was located at the end of the corridor. This room was also painted the same color. Later on I realized all the personnel's wing is colored the same. Yet, I could never find out the reason why it was that way. But this room didn't look that heart warming. Either it was the half closed window shutters or maybe the cheap-looking set of furniture placed completely unorganized around the room that make me feel that way. For a moment I started to analyze the the arrangement of the furniture and taking a good look at them but before even starting to do so, I found myself so stressed out and unfocused that I just let go of the whole thing and tried to stay focused on the task at hand. At the end of the room in front of the northern wall there was a desk. Behind it, this person in charge of the paper work and admission process was sitting. She looked quite pretty to me not very beautiful though. Compared to an average woman, she was rather tall and I liked her body's structure. Then I notice something in her eyes! something frightening, something loathsome. It felt like, to her, every person that ever entered through those doors behind me was some sort of a case-study or an experiment or even worse some sort of an object like a toothbrush! I so didn't want to be in her presence anymore, but it wasn't like I had any other options. If I wanted to finish this thing and get it over with I had to tolerate her presence for the next 20 minutes. The best thing I could do was to distract my thoughts and just ignore her. I did it quite well. Even to this day thinking back I can't remember anything of the of the things happened during the whole admission process. The next thing I remember is that I was called to follow some one who just arrived, to lead me to my housing for the next 3 weeks. [I gave it a lot of thoughts ever since and there's something that makes me believe that it wasn't 3 weeks at all. I can't say how long it lasted, but it just wasn't 3 weeks! I'm positive about that!]

This new person who just arrived was also a girl. Approximately the same age as the one sitting behind the desk, and more or less the same height, which was quite surprising, I remember myself thinking: “Why are these girls so tall?” Later on, there were times I found myself quite convinced that these tall girls are also of some other alien race, but my theory proved to be wrong! This girl was not as inhuman as the Desk Girl. This one had this glare in her eyes, something welcoming, something warm, something that let me trust her just a bit! [I venture to note that maybe that Something was the size of her breasts! Yet, I don't really stress on that idea, because I really think it was never about that. I just trusted her. And well, she never let my trust down.]

After a short farewell with my mother who was gentle enough to accompany me and ease me through this whole admission process, she walked me back through the pale sky-blue Alien corridor. Then we arrived at the huge white entrance door and we took the other door on its left side an entered another corridor. This one was colored all in white. This one didn't look alien to me at all, still Toilet-ish, but not alien! We walked to its end and passed through this white double panel door with reinforced windows on each of the panels. I changed my cloths for something more comfortable and was briefed about some of the rules and regulations of the facility. Then we took an elevator to the 4th floor. There was my room. The 6th one on the right side of the main corridor. It ran all the way through the southern wing of the building and connected the elevator and the lounge at the other end. I never bothered to venture around the premises of the southern wing and poke my nose into other people's affairs. I never felt interested to do so due to an unknown reason. Anyone who knows me must have been pretty surprised reading that last sentence. But it's true and that was what I did. Or better to say, what I didn't do! I was so nervous and agitated in the elevator, couldn't even wait one more second to see my roommate, after all she was the only reason I came there in the first place, but the moment we left the elevator, with every single step I felt more and more in doubt. When we arrived at the door to our room I halted. I just couldn't get myself to walk in! What am I going to say to her? "Hi! How do you feel?" or "Hi There! How has it been?" It just felt so extremely stupid and redundant. I believe my company also felt my reluctance! She put her hand on my shoulder, didn't really say anything, just look me in the eye and I got the message!

There was no way for me to give up now! My mind was made up! It was so clear to me! I just had to do it! I just had to go through with it! For the sake of everyone including me!

I nodded, giving her a signal that I would rather do it alone. She was kind enough to leave me, just whispering in my ear that she will see me back around the lunch time an I can always call her or her colleagues, from the direct line in the room, in case I need something! After she had gone, for another couple of minutes I struggled with my thoughts and wrestled around with the idea, how this first encounter is about to be! When I finally felt it's the time, I just turned the knob, opened the door and walked inside, without even thinking how it's going to turn out...

To Be Continued...

Friday, April 2, 2010

The Mechanics Of Destruction


In A Disoriented Mind,
An Excess Amount Of Unused Intelligence, 
Can B A Dangerous Force To Deal With, 
Dangerous Enough To Scare Me...

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Die Liebe NerĂ¾us'


Why Do I Feel So Lonely Without My Instrumentz?

And The Physical Shape Ov Light Bled











Here I Am...
Sittin In Front Ov My Laptop,
Keepin An Eye Outside The Window,


N The Beautiful Spring Rain Caressing The New Born Leaves,
N The Birds Singing So Excitedly N Jumpin From A Branch 2 Another,
N The Soft Music Which Iz Being Played,
N This Stupid Smile Dat Jus Doesnt Fade From My Face,

I Lost My Train Ov Thoughtz!
What Waz I Sayin?
Uh Yeah...

The Birds, New Bornz, Flying...
ReBirth Of De Mother Nature Iz Finally Here,
N Uh, So Beautiful She Lookz In This Tranquil Evening!